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Why God Keep Me in Wait?



When it comes to marriage, there were times when I wonder why God keep me in wait while others are getting married in a flash. Not that I'm jealous with my friends who get married earlier, it's just a random thought, why?

For me marriage has always been my top of mind. In high school where all my friends were busy choosing uni, I want to get married. In Uni where all my friends were anxious about job hunting, I want to get married. I always choose 21 years old whenever acquaintances/elder asked when is my marriage target. Don't even start with my friends, if somebody asked or joked "who's the first person to get married?" the definite answer always "Riri laaah!"

Now that I'm 25 years old and proudly single, I'd watched lots of my dearest friends getting married before me. I promised myself to always be there to witness the most important days in my friends life no matter how busy I am (early flight, 12 hours train ride or 6 hours driving: checked!). The closer I am with the Bride/ Groom the more tears I have on my eyes during Akad. Never once I had jealousy or hatred watching my friend(s) pronounced husband and wife. The thought of my friends happiness on that day forward always choked me up. Oh no, I am starting to tears up right now😂

The point is, I cannot believed for someone who longing to get married for years could have that pure happiness whenever I witnessed my friends wedding/ heard any good news related to my friends love life progress. Sometimes my heart hurts whenever I saw my parents faded face when I told them another wedding news. Especially when it comes from those who were single while I'm taken. How I wish my parent feel the same way as I am becuase everyone has their own time and mine is yet to come.

Get back to my first question "why?". I believe that God keep me in wait because:
1. He knows that my faith in marriage would never fade.
2. He has been keeping the right person (that He choose specially for me) secretly to make sure that I will meet him at the right time according to His plan.
3. He want me to enjoy my life to the fullest before I settle down.

Yes, His plan would never go wrong.

I believe because He has given me life more than I deserved.

Alhamdulillah..



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